Life can be a Pain

[Appleblossom]

@Owlunar 

Doing the loop  ... when you can ... tick the boxes ... when you can ... you have earned that right. 

I am working out what to do with the Miss Yackety Yacks in my life.  There are 2.  When words tumble out without thought or consideration, its fine for a child growing up, but some adults do not realise how much they impose.

Take Care

Apple

[Shaz51]

hugs @Owlunar 

[Owlunar]

Hi @Shaz51 @Appleblossom @Anastasia @Faith-and-Hope  @Emelia8 @Maggie @BlueBay @Zoe7 

@greenpea @MDT 

It's Wednesday - I spent yesterday just sitting it out - I didn't do much more than my most important chores and thought that the main thing is keeping in touch with my daughter and lasting the day and I did both

And as I thought - the mess in the kitchen did not get up and run away - it faithfully remained until now and isn't quite as bad as I thought it would be

My daughter is having a procedure today - it seems a variation of the nerve treatment - some kind of neuropathy that I have been having though more serious - she is having a General Anaesthetic this afternoon - I sent her a text - I know her well enough to give her space today and of course - I am concerned

Luckily I know from my own life that I will get back onto my wheels when all this is over - I had my breakfast watching what I recorded on TV last night because I went to bed early - and I didn't feel like getting up today - and I am still in my dressing gown and who cares - I will be okay - it is my daughter I am concerned about and all I can do is to pray and leave it in God's hands because that is all that is possible right now - and I am really tired 

And it seems so many other people are battling too - I hear you - I have posted to a couple but I most likely will try and tidy up after this post. @Zoe7  - I hope Cat is okay after her operation - I haven't found your posts yet - give me time - and @BlueBay - I know you are not in the forum much but thanks for taking the time to tag me - I appreciate that

@Appleblossom  - what can we do about the Miss Yakkety Yaks of this world who seem to need to hear the sound of their own voices and not ours - children can do this - and that's okay - I remember doing this myself to keep my grandmother engaged - and I have watched and listened to children looking everywhere but at my face and talking about nothing in particular - yes - it's fine for children

But an adult - no - especially when the motor-mouth is turned on - actually I feel very badly about dumping this lonely woman and maybe if my life wasn't so churned up and uncertain at this moment I would not have written that polite note just letting her know I am presently overwhelmed. But then - I need to care for myself first and be my own best friend - we all do - if we care for ourselves then we can care for others - I did block this lady's number though - I am taking the easy way out I know and it never feels good I am sure of that. All the best with your ladies - I hope you can work your way to a place that is better than now.

Thanks for your support and posts everyone - it means so much - and when I can I will post and let you know how my daughter is

Dec

[Anastasia]

Dear @Owlunar 

Oh my heart is aching for you, you have done well to do get your most important chores done yesterday. The dishes can wait.

Dec your heart must be so heavy. I am sitting with you and know that today is a difficult day for you with her procedure. As I write this all I can think is that I am so sorry that it is just words, most of which I am actually struggling with because nothing seems enough...

Love always to you Dec xox

[Owlunar]

I can feel you sitting with me on this difficult day - @Anastasia 

I sent my daughter a text rather than engage her in conversation today - I know there are times when she just needs to be by herself -  I understand that - there are times when I feel the same

It is difficult when those we love have to go through something - I am not sure what the surgeon is doing today - it seems similar to what I had done a few weeks ago but I was only sedated and it was my shoulder - not my spine - I was awake when I had my spine done in March - whether it's a different procedure or a different surgeon or both I don't know,

And I want to know - I want to know everything - I am of a different mind-set - it bothered my mother terribly but my father loved it - today I am sitting with it and glad you are there

But whether or not because I took things easy yesterday I don't know but I am managing to tidy my unit which was looking a bit sad - I like things tidy but I am not afraid to let things go if I need to

Your words are fine - here that's all we can give each other really and they do well when meant well as you do - I hear you - I understand

Dec

[Anastasia]

@Owlunar 

[Shaz51]

hello and hugs @Owlunar , @Anastasia 

i have not done my dishes or my washing yet today 

thinking of you lots today 

our car went to the garage to get the brakes fixed -- can not be fixed today 

we did mum's place this morning -- mr shaz helped me 

we had lunch at home , it is raining here

and just woke up from a sleep 

[BlueBay]

Hi @Owlunar 

I really hope the surgery went well for your daughter. Been thinking about you. I hope you're ok too. Xxx

[Anastasia]

Dear @Owlunar 

I trust your daughter's surgery went well. Keeping you in my thoughts and sending bucket loads of love your way 💞❣️

[Emelia8]

Good morning @Owlunar  .. a quick visit from me.  Just wanted to send my best wishes your way.  

Really hope your daughters procedure went well on Wednesday, and that she is starting to feel some benefits from it by now.  Very much thinking of you my dear friend.

Emelia 🌺