Hi @Shaz51 @Appleblossom @Anastasia @Faith-and-Hope  @Emelia8 @Maggie @BlueBay @Zoe7 

@Bunniekins @MDT 

It's Wednesday - I spent yesterday just sitting it out - I didn't do much more than my most important chores and thought that the main thing is keeping in touch with my daughter and lasting the day and I did both

And as I thought - the mess in the kitchen did not get up and run away - it faithfully remained until now and isn't quite as bad as I thought it would be

My daughter is having a procedure today - it seems a variation of the nerve treatment - some kind of neuropathy that I have been having though more serious - she is having a General Anaesthetic this afternoon - I sent her a text - I know her well enough to give her space today and of course - I am concerned

Luckily I know from my own life that I will get back onto my wheels when all this is over - I had my breakfast watching what I recorded on TV last night because I went to bed early - and I didn't feel like getting up today - and I am still in my dressing gown and who cares - I will be okay - it is my daughter I am concerned about and all I can do is to pray and leave it in God's hands because that is all that is possible right now - and I am really tired 

And it seems so many other people are battling too - I hear you - I have posted to a couple but I most likely will try and tidy up after this post. @Zoe7  - I hope Cat is okay after her operation - I haven't found your posts yet - give me time - and @BlueBay - I know you are not in the forum much but thanks for taking the time to tag me - I appreciate that

@Appleblossom  - what can we do about the Miss Yakkety Yaks of this world who seem to need to hear the sound of their own voices and not ours - children can do this - and that's okay - I remember doing this myself to keep my grandmother engaged - and I have watched and listened to children looking everywhere but at my face and talking about nothing in particular - yes - it's fine for children

But an adult - no - especially when the motor-mouth is turned on - actually I feel very badly about dumping this lonely woman and maybe if my life wasn't so churned up and uncertain at this moment I would not have written that polite note just letting her know I am presently overwhelmed. But then - I need to care for myself first and be my own best friend - we all do - if we care for ourselves then we can care for others - I did block this lady's number though - I am taking the easy way out I know and it never feels good I am sure of that. All the best with your ladies - I hope you can work your way to a place that is better than now.

Thanks for your support and posts everyone - it means so much - and when I can I will post and let you know how my daughter is

Dec