Does anyone want to talk

[Zoe7]

Hey @ArraDreaming I hope you are in bed sound asleep right now. I have an appointment in the morning but will be home in the afternoon - will let you know when I am home so we can chat.

I also hope you are going okay with work and more importantly your health. I have become quite fond of you and our conversations so more than happy to chat 🌞

[ArraDreaming]

Hey @Zoe7 I hope you have a good day today
I did actually get told a few days that I been fire from my job

[ArraDreaming]

I wanted to tell you cause I think we are good friends

[Zoe7]

Oh @ArraDreaming I am so sorry buddy. That is horrible to hear and I feel so sad for you. Right now I have a lot of questions and cliches I could throw out but I am really just upset for you.

A mix of emotions here though - sad for you news but also I feel very privileged that you trusted me with that news ...and more so that you would call me a good friend. I feel the same - I am very fond of you and also so, so proud of you. Even a few weeks ago you may have been really mad and showed us here - but you have kept this to yourself and carried yourself with dignity. I feel like a proud Mum (and yes I am that old lol) whose little bird is taking on challenges and dealing with life in such a positive way. I do know how hard this will be for you and I wish I could help in other ways but for now know I am here for you ❤️

[ArraDreaming]

Thanks @Zoe7 yeah been really upset but Just trying other things and places to get my feelings out so others here dont have to cop it
I feel pretty rubbish i think yesterday I was in a better space then the day before but just came crashing down again last night and i think the fact that it was entirely my fault without doubt probably stings even more because i could have been better @Zoe7
I hope you’rd ok I hate always making things about me

[Zoe7]

Please don't apologise for making things about you @ArraDreaming I am more than happy to listen and be here for you. I am okay - I will let you know if I am not or need time out so go ahead and dump everything on me ...as I said, here for you and want to be because I truly value you and our friendship here. The connection we have made has been one of the highlights of my last few months and I actually look forward to when you are on ❤️

I know it is hard when you think it is your fault and could have done better. The thing is - it is done now and you can carry those 'learnings' into the future - no point on dwelling on the what ifs or what could have been because we cannot go back and change history. The important things now are that you look after yourself and hopefully very quickly find something else. Are you going to be okay moneywise? I suspect that will be a big problem for a while.

[ArraDreaming]

yeah it’s been a problem for a little while but managed to survive ok but I am worried now @Zoe7 I had a look at some things yesterday one job that interests me closes on Sunday but we are going camping tomorrow until early next week and I’m not sure I have it in me to get that and our camping trip organised all in one day i don’t want to cancel our trip because we paid for it but we might come back early the rain looks like it may stick around and be quite significant
brains just operating both a million miles an hour and pathetically slow at all the same time
I should of seen it coming especially because I did something incredibly stupid like so incredibly stupid which should have been in my mind something worth getting fired over but I just didnt think I just dont sometimes and Im so stupid for it just be better you idiot

[Zoe7]

As I said buddy - you cannot change the past AND you are not stupid or an idiot. We all make mistakes, even ones we can see happening at the time and don't do anything about it. You have come so far in the last few months and whatever the mistake was, it's happened. Now we look towards the future @ArraDreaming This may actually be a good thing as the job was giving you such overwhelming anxiety at times. I do know how hard it is out there on the jobs front though so I will have everything crossed for you that something comes up quickly.

It is only midday - so we have time. Can I help in any way for you to get this job application in?

I have a few things I wanted to do this afternoon but they can wait - you are more important today ❤️

[ArraDreaming]

pl ease don’t worry about me @Zoe7 Mrs jay5 is going to help me if we get the kids settled on a movie or something as she is familiar with the organisation I’m applying for so that is helpful, you do what you have to do and I will be ok @Zoe7 I really appreciate how much you care

[Zoe7]

@ArraDreaming It really is no bother buddy - I would much rather be around for you this afternoon. I have 4 weeks of holidays left so I have plenty of time to do other things. 

I hope you can get the kids settled and you and Mrs Jay5 can smash out the application. She sounds like the most wonderful person Jay - but I am not surprised as you are too ❤️