Trying to be happy, isn’t working

[Peri]

Thank you @Anastasia ,

the flowers look beautiful in my room..

i can speak much now I am feeling so sad and drained. But I think of you with deep affection.

and also @Emelia8 @Eve7 @outlander @Former-Member 

peri

[Anastasia]

Oh @Peri 

I am so sorry to learn that you are feeling sad and drained...I'm sending you extra squishy hugs in the hope it helps a little? Perhaps some good news...I had a follow up ultrasound today for some cysts and since the last one there are no significant changes... so back to yearly mammogram and ultrasound, phew. Hoping your gorgeous granddaughter brings you the much needed ray of sunshine dear Peri 🌼🌸🙏☀️

[Emelia8]

Hello dear @Peri .. I am really sorry to hear how sad and mentally drained you are currently feeling.

As you know, I think of you too with much affection ... and always have. I wish I could help, and feel quite helpless that I cannot.  I hope you can find something beautiful in your day, something that makes you happy .. and cling onto that.

Much love to you dear Peri.  I may not have been around much lately in support of you ... but I do still think of you every day, and I care about you a lot.  Wishing for good things to come for you.  Perhaps in some unexpected form.

@Anastasia ... Oh what good news about your ultrasound results.  You must feel much relieved about that. I'm glad.

Love you both.

Emelia 😊💞

[Anastasia]

Love you too @Emelia8 

@Peri do you feel a little better? 

I brought some afternoon tea for us to enjoy and some flowers this time for your bedroom

[Peri]

Dear @Anastasia , @Emelia8 ,

what a lovely pair you are, so kind.  I love the flowers and the tea is lovely. Your messages really cheered me. 

My son and I were back in the family court yesterday for final orders.  Thank goodness it is all over for now.   But it was all so unfair,  he has no lawyer, we have no money left from all this by now and he was refused legal aid.  And the system is so pro the mother. It made me terrible sad . And I think that has affected me .  When we got home in the early afternoon, I just went to bed and kept myself asleep until this morning.

i fear the rest of my life being like this.  I feel like my options are gone and I am stuck in a place I don’t want to be.

but I don’t want to bang on.

today I made some raspberry ripple ice cream. It looks yummy.

i need to find a way to move forward.

Thank you again lovely ladies

peri

[Anastasia]

Oh @Peri no wonder you are sad, I am so so sorry 😔

I can't stay as I need to get to work but I couldn't not at least pop in. I'll be back in the mean time I am sending you and your son and gorgeous granddaughter an abundance of love 💕

Hugs too @Emelia8 

[Emelia8]

Thank you @Peri  for both your kind words and your update on your Sons situation.

No wonder you have been feeling so sad ... family law court disputes are such an emotive thing for all concerned.

You didnt say what the outcome of the deicion was .. but it sounds as though your Son (and therefore your grand daughter and yourself) did not get a fair deal.  I am really sorry ... that must hurt so much.

The raspberry ripple ice cream sounds particularly yummy, and I'm sure looks even better.

Moving forward from this will take time Peri.  Allow yourself that time, dont push it.  It must feel almost like a grieving process ... the loss of rights over a child/grandchild is a very significant loss.  I do hope your son and yourself still have some visitation rights?  Perhaps if you feel up to it another day ... you may wish to elaborate on that.

In the meantime ... I'm leaving these for you.  And for you too @Anastasia ... I expect you will be hard at work by now.

Emelia 💕😊

[Anastasia]

Quick pop in with some love, hugs and morning tea dear @Peri Always thinking of you my dear friend xxx

[Peri]

Thank you very much @Anastasia ,

i love it all. . And a happy day to you too

peri

[Anastasia]

Hello @Peri 

It's a pleasure tagging you in...I should do more of it. I pretty much use my phone and tagging can be challenging but not impossible so watch this space 😃

I hope you are enjoying your time with your Granddaughter 💕 I've had a very lazy day. It is raining very heavy here so not venturing anywhere anytime soon! I'm a little jealous of the weather in the west. Not much for me to report, same stuff as always. Love and hugs dear Peri...and some fresh flowers just for you xxx