My Mosaic

[Jynx]

You have nothing to be sorry for @Snowie! 

Mm it can feel really rough to be the source of someone's frustration... I reckon it'd put me straight back into childhood where my parents would say like 'I'm not mad, just disappointed' (which we all know is WORSE). 

Try not to be too hard on yourself hun. Coping is coping, even when we know it's not a healthy method. And no one can shame themselves into making progress, we all flourish better with compassion, especially if it comes from within. 

I hope the appt ends up being helpful, and if you do find yourself sitting with shame in the room, vocalising it might help demonstrate that compassion is what you're needing right now 💜

[Jynx]

@Bow big day indeed hun, good on you for seeing it through. 

When you say 'they' don't take you seriously, are you talking about the group? Is it something you feel ought to be expressed next time you're there? 

I'm glad your SW is so attuned to you, sounds like she really cares. In the list of things she suggested, maybe there's one or two that feel even a little bit approachable? You don't have to utilise them today but could be handy to keep in the back of your mind to try tomorrow or something. 

You'll never have to do today again hun. And only an hour till Neighbours is on, right?! Always time for comforts 😌

[Snowie]

@Jynx sorry, don't want to take up this thread.

[Bow]

They….  I mean my psych/ CM @Jynx I think sometimes I say some things… test the waters I guess, and I barely get a response, so I just leave it at that. Maybe I just need to give up. I’m tired of fighting. So tired. 

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[Jynx]

@Bow 🥺🫂

That is frustrating... maybe they just don't realise how thick the mask is, and how much inner turmoil it's hiding. This is also the psych that discourages you writing stuff down right? So maybe that's off the table. But these feelings are important and deserve to be heard. 

I've gotta dash hun, finishing up prepping for tomorrow night's PGC, so I won't be as responsive, but @tyme is about now if you're wanting to chat further about it all. 

Hugs to you darlin, the warm n squishy kind 💜

[Bow]

I feel like they think it’s been about a year since any major issues or attempts, then they think that I am doing ok. But I’m not. I’ve been hanging by a very narrow thin thread and it could break at any time. When I call for some extra support and then have to justify it to them. Me calling for help is enough. Well it should be. 

[Bow]

You ever sit and wonder what it would be like? What it would feel like?

[Captain24]

Yes

[Bow]

🫂😩 @Captain24 

[Captain24]

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