Hi everyone.
It's been a long time and it has been rough. My uncle died before I got to visit him in Hobart however, I did get to go to his funeral and that makes one great difference when I lost someone who was so important in my life - my whole life. I did think at the time that I was the person who had known him for the longest time present - and in the world - I have another uncle so I am the second oldest person in my family now.
When I was in Hobart the weather got really bad and my flight back was pretty bumpy - I have experienced worse turbulence but this time my shoulder was jerked about. We had a tail wind and the flight back to Melbourne was faster than usual.
After all that - with pain and grief work - I had to withdraw to deal with my life generally - nothing out of the ordinary - just life happening - as it always does - it felt harder though, and time does pass - and I had a break though with my shoulder and another significant event earlier this week.
I was given a telescope for Christmas - wow - that was so exciting - I took it outside to try and see Jupiter and Mars - I need to get a folding table to raise the telescope and that's on my to do list right now. I was so busy trying I didn't notice the ants biting and stinging my legs - the itch started in the morning and I am allergic to ants - but after the whole thing settled I found the pain in my shoulder - which has been having regular treatments - is less painful.
And - long story short - I had some questionnaires to answer for my pain specialist - I scored high on childhood trauma and got the highest score for resilience. I talked to someone at Blue Knot about the childhood trauma and really unloaded my emotional pockets and found all the stuff heavy stuff there was gems - I really have taken every good chance with my life and as hard has it has been it has been a life worth living and I am thankful for it- more than that - glad of it.
I have missed so many people. I have been thinking about this community and reading as a guest from time to time - and after the events of this week decided I could come back.
I have a lot to catch up with - and about -
I wish everyone the best for the New Year
Owlunar
