Any diagnosed germophobes or hoarders on this forum?

[Anastasia]

Hello my dear friend,

Thank you for your message. 

This week has been so big in so many ways, I am beyond exhausted mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

Haha, you being "right here" is such a nice feeling. It's reciprocal, please remember that 🙂👍

It's lovely to hear your work was great and sunshine too, winning!!! That makes me very happy 😊

I am wishing for no more scratching  specifically on face and hands in abundance please Universe 🙏

I never wake, it's funny I'm always surprised to see the results, sometimes I am embarrassed because of what people might think so dress accordingly if the need be.

I did some gardening a few days ago and ended up with splinters so my arm is bandaged in many places, I look a mess at the moment.

With the emojis, try the windows key I think? As you know I use my phone only so I'm not much help I'm sorry. I have no doubt you'll conquer it, you are smart @NatureLover 💛

I am a little bit sleep deprived from having had the surgery. I sleep on my tummy but I can't at the moment, very tender, so I am looking forward to a good night sleep in the coming days 🤞

My boy is potentially back to hospital 😔

It goes against my entire being.

I will keep you in the loop. I'm really hoping a miracle happens that makes him decide it is not a good decision all round 🙏

The "friends" are becoming a bigger part of his life, something I am struggling with. My chat with the SANE counsellor helped. 

I can't change it or "fix" it. They will be here tomorrow night. I really will be digging deep for that! 

Life is tricky isn't it? So difficult when what's white to me is black to my boy. 

Thank you for listening NL. 

I hope you have a wonderful weekend with lots of sun, happy times, lots of beautiful trees and vegan food. Love you lots 🌳✔️☕💚⭐

P.S I just heard back about the scholarship. My application was unsuccessful 😔 

Oh well, I am a firm believer in the Universe. Too tired to react as yet, I guess it will sink in over the coming days x

[NatureLover]

Oh no, @Anastasia ! Re the scholarship application! 😞

I just saw your email notification and wanted to reply straight away, then saw your P.S. 😞

And this too:

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@Anastasia wrote:

My boy is potentially back to hospital 😔

It goes against my entire being.

I will keep you in the loop. I'm really hoping a miracle happens that makes him decide it is not a good decision all round 🙏

The "friends" are becoming a bigger part of his life, something I am struggling with. My chat with the SANE counsellor helped. 

I can't change it or "fix" it. They will be here tomorrow night. I really will be digging deep for that! 

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I will also be wishing for a miracle. Tell me, would it be appropriate to wish that the toxic girl would get offended at something or in some other way would just go away? Or might that drop your boy into a dark place? Maybe it's just best to wish for safety and protection for your boy whatever comes? (Which I am doing)

I'm pretty concerned for you, my dear friend. You are "beyond exhausted" in every way and have some hugely serious things on your plate. I'm glad you were able to chat to a SANE Counsellor. This weekend seems crucial for you to get some mental rest...I hear you about the girls coming over tomorrow night though. So I'm wishing for sleep and some restoration tonight and tomorrow, and again on Sunday. 

Thank you for your kind wishes. I like them very much. Also, you're right, I was vegan for 2 years, but for a few years now have been back to vegetarian. 

The Windows key isn't working with Windows 11, I googled but haven't solved the mystery yet. No matter, will look more at it later.

I really appreciate your news but wanted to say that it's more important for you to get a break if needed...so please, no pressure to write or send wishes. I will still be sending wishes anyway, I have the 'bandwidth' at the moment 

[Anastasia]

Thank you lovely @NatureLover 

🙏

Like you I wondered about those thoughts but yes it would definitely affect his safety so let's go with keeping him safe thoughts between us. Thank you so much 🙏

I've signed off from work now much to the disdain of my toxic colleague. Even though there's four in her team now and three were off apparently it was a problem that I worked through lunch and finished at four, sigh!

Some people really are hard work.

Now that I know about scholarship I will be looking for another job in the new year!

I'm off to catch a quick snooze before I cook dinner. 

Much 💚 always and again, thank you NL x

[NatureLover]

OK, safety and protection it is @Anastasia .

Sending wishes for you today and especially for tonight when the toxic girl comes over. And for your boy of course. 

Beautiful day here and am off outside now. Have already done an early shop. 

and coffee for you.

[Anastasia]

Enjoy your day @NatureLover 💚🌳💛

[NatureLover]

Oh no @Anastasia  😞

"I'm devastated my boy is having a covid test for another hospital admission"

I'm so sorry to hear 😞 When will the admission be? How are you coping?

Thank you for tagging me and for the lovely picture.

Thinking of you and sending wishes, especially for tonight. 

[Anastasia]

Thank you @NatureLover 

It all just feels so surreal really, like I'm watching someone else life unfold with pity and I can't do a thing about it.

I don't recall feeling this way before. I think broken is the best word for it. Defeated. Just sad really, really, really sad NL.

Monday if test is negative. Which it will be. 

Big hugs and thank you for writing to me. I treasure you very much 🌳💛

[NatureLover]

@Anastasia  I'm worried about you. Broken, defeated and very very sad is not good...It sounds like things feel out of your control. I'm concerned you don't have enough support. You have us on here, your friends who understand MI, but professionally you only have the SANE Counsellors occasionally. 

You sound like you're feeling completely hopeless, my dear friend 😞 ...I'm really concerned. (And yes, I want to be concerned and I'm glad you told me, and I feel up to hearing it.) I will be sending wishes as best I can, and I'm here if you want to talk. Wishing for enough strength for you just to get through...lots of hugs 

[Anastasia]

Thank you @NatureLover 

I'll be ok, really I will. I always am. It's just hard. Please try not to worry. I'm happy to hear you feel strong but I do not want to cause you concern. I will be doing everything in my power to self care I promise. I will probably even take some leave if I need to. Don't need toxic colleague in my face that's for sure x

[NatureLover]

I won't worry as in ruminate, don't worry. I will just send wishes whenever I think of your situation and your boy's. @Anastasia  

I know you know how to self care...I also know that occasionally we feel broken. 😞

Just sending huge hugs and wishes